I have been feeling a bit odd in the past fortnight. Like a feather, drifting down the abyss into infinity. Dark. Empty. Groundless. A sense of aimlessness that I have not experienced before. This week marks the 1-year anniversary of my “Great Resignation”. I have achieved many things that I did not think would be possible. Restoring my health. Learning new things. Connecting with like-minded people. Walking the aligned path. Life is going well, and I have so much to be grateful for. But why do I feel sad?
This is a beautiful and meaningful piece of writing Bonnie. In thinking about your quote from Steve Jobs I will add my of my favourites from a tortured but brilliant artist Ian Curtis:
“Existence is, ... well what does it matter? I exist on the best terms I can. The past is now part of my future. The present is well out of hand.”
Note to self: "Change is a process, not an event, and you must be patient with both yourself and others in the face of any transition. This kind of gentleness is integral to successful change—it simply won’t happen without a sense of compassion." ~ Susan David, Emotional Agility Newsletter, 11 July 2022
Wow. Sometimes I have negative feelings and cannot make sense of it. Your interpretation of your experience makes sense to me. Grief seems to be the appropriate word, even though you are moving forward from where you were. I am happy for you Bonnie, you've made such progress, doing this for yourself. Thinking of you as you are about to start your new job!
This is a beautiful and meaningful piece of writing Bonnie. In thinking about your quote from Steve Jobs I will add my of my favourites from a tortured but brilliant artist Ian Curtis:
“Existence is, ... well what does it matter? I exist on the best terms I can. The past is now part of my future. The present is well out of hand.”
Thanks for sharing your heart and soul with us.
Note to self: "Change is a process, not an event, and you must be patient with both yourself and others in the face of any transition. This kind of gentleness is integral to successful change—it simply won’t happen without a sense of compassion." ~ Susan David, Emotional Agility Newsletter, 11 July 2022
Wow. Sometimes I have negative feelings and cannot make sense of it. Your interpretation of your experience makes sense to me. Grief seems to be the appropriate word, even though you are moving forward from where you were. I am happy for you Bonnie, you've made such progress, doing this for yourself. Thinking of you as you are about to start your new job!